Falling down a mental black hole.

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I’ve been dealing with a situation that’s been somewhat traumatizing to me and has gotten me very depressed and experiencing feelings of self-hatred and shame (having SAD doesn’t help).   I became so depressed all I could do was lie in bed and sleep or just mope around and do nothing except wallow in self pity.  I lost all motivation to write anything at all.    I prayed for answers and clarity on this situation, and now that I finally understand the reason this thing triggered me so much, I’m finally starting to feel a little better about it.

I’m sorry, but I’m not prepared to say what the situation is.    I’m not ill nor is anyone close to me sick.  I didn’t lose my job. No one died. Nothing “bad” happened.   It’s purely a thing that has to do with my mental disorders and is probably something that wouldn’t bother a normal person nearly so much but sent me hurtling down a mental black hole.

I have therapy tomorrow where I will be talking about it.  The only person that knows exactly what’s going on with me right now is my therapist.    I hope I come away feeling almost back to normal (normal for me, that is).

I still don’t know how much I’ll feel like posting, though.

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10 thoughts on “Falling down a mental black hole.

      1. Yes I have been there. I hate it worse than anything. Wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.

        On second thought, yes I would. My worst enemy is one mean you-know-what. But I really hate that you are going through this. I’m glad you have a therapist to help you through.

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    1. Thanks , PG (ok if I call you that?) Yeah, I saw my therapist last night and I think it helped some but I’m not exactly a happy camper atm.
      I’ll try to post a few things this weekend anyway though. I feel like this depression is derailing me from my passion which is blogging.

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