The weirdness of awareness.

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Credit: Latest Adventures in Bizarro World

It’s very disorienting and weird using terms like “false self,””true self,” and “narcissistic supply” in terms of myself now, instead of just my abusers.

I don’t know if it’s the False Self I talk about in the third person or if it’s the True Self. Sometimes I can’t tell which Self is which.
I’m in Bizarro World, or some parallel universe where everything is backwards.

I don’t know if I’ll ever get used to this.

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3 thoughts on “The weirdness of awareness.

  1. Did you ever see the movie ”Steppenwolf?” In it, he takes acid and enters ”the magic theater.” He sees Goethe who has pieces of Harry’s personality. He asks Harry which piece is you? Harry looks over the pieces, frantically trying to find himself. Then Goethe says, ”No. You are the whole game.” ”What is this game?” asks Harry. ”Life.” Ooh that gave me the quivers. You are the whole game. True self? False self? It’s all you.

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